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Jerome seems to have been rather busy. He was here just yesterday,
(errata: Saturday, it turns out, so things aren’t that bad) and if I
had not joined the other teachers at The Grind, I might have met him.
I usually eat at Eyrie by myself, anyway.

I suppose it’s for the best. If I were there, it would have been
somewhat awkward. They planned to review, after all. It would probably
be hard for them to leave me eating alone, and it would be hard for me
to eat alone, but…

Sometimes I don’t like being on the JITSE board. What did I do? I just
submitted a short list of questions, and that was it. Nothing else
from them, nothing else from me. I don’t even feel very much like a
board member. I’ve lost an opportunity to study with friends and test
myself in friendly competition. (Darn it! Next time, I’ll probably
turn them down. ;) )

I know that this is wise. I might want to be more a part of his life,
but I know that the way things are now is for the best. I did have fun
last night. I learned a little bit about playing the guitar. But
still… I read about his life and I miss him. I know why he didn’t
get in touch with me, and I’m happy that he’s getting to meet other
people. He started mixing with his old batchmates – he’s certainly not
the introvert he thought he used to be. So – voice of reason – this is
good.

Yes, this is good. Part of me might not like it, but it’s good, and I
won’t get in his way. I shouldn’t dwell on it or feel bad. I should
continue living, learning, and having fun. That way, when we reconnect
– if we will, if it’ll still be all right – I’ll have stories to share
and lessons to pass on. I need to remember that.

(Errata: Apparently, they were there on Saturday. I suppose that’s
somewhat better, but still… <mildly put out> ;) )