I haven’t been blogging lately. Things have been a bit confusing, but
I’m glad that I’m starting to sort things out. I’m looking forward to
the weekend. I plan to spend at least a day blissing out near some
lakeside park armed with a journal and my Moleskine, reflecting on
some knotty things. Then it’s back to cramming my reading paper…
One of those knotty things hasn’t really been mentioned in my blog,
aside from oblique references to forks (metaphorical) and
onions (literal). A friend reminded me that a lot of people care about what’s going on in my life, though, so even though I try not to bore you with all the details of my almost-always-sunny life, here’s one of the clouds.
For practical reasons, Dominique and I have decided to no longer be in
an exclusive relationship. I still hold the greatest respect for him
and I hope it’ll work out in the future, but the timing sucks, and
there’s nothing we can do about it.
I’ve learned that life is so much better when I’m in a good
relationship, or at least among good friends. I’m in no rush to get
into a crappy relationship, though. Having tasted what a wonderful,
wonderful thing love is, I won’t lower my standards.
So what happens now?
Well, life goes on. My reading paper is due next week. My research
proceeds. My friends and family are there for me. Life goes on, and
spring brings the sun back.
In terms of people? I don’t know. I really don’t know. I don’t have a
good idea of my future yet, so courtship is out of the question. I’m
not into dating for the sake of dating, and I’m accustomed to more
affection and love than most people know.
Perhaps this is a good opportunity, then, to shower that affection and
love on my friends. I am free, and I choose to remain free so that I
can be where I am needed and wanted, and where _I_ need and want to be.
When I miss the feeling of being very, very special to someone, I can
hug my stuffed toys and remember that I am at least a little bit
special to at least a few people.
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And to the friend who pointed out that lots of people are probably
pinging me to make sure I’m alright: spot on. And that just makes me
feel _so_ wonderful.
Thanks, everyone. <hugz> You make my day sunny.
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A limitless future limits the present. What’s my future? Is this home,
is this where I’m supposed to belong? What of my duty, what of the
potential to serve the Philippines, what of all the love and
friendship I’ve left behind there?
I am adrift, no stars to guide me. I can follow the current, but I
must then follow alone… I should keep faith that when I am closer to
shore, I will find what I need. In the meantime, let me do whatever I
can. It is but one of the sacrifices I must make, and it is merely the
sacrifice of something I have so recently discovered. May I have the
strength to live without it!
“Where I am going, you cannot come.”
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This is what it’s like to be loved. =)
I was having one of my I-hate-being-an-international-student moments
when Dominique turned up online, telling me his Sacha-sense was
tingling. I was incoherent during the first half of our Skype
conversation, but he just kept listening to me and joking with me
until I felt better.
I don’t think I’ll wake up in time to go to IBM tomorrow, so I’ll make
it up on Monday instead. I guess I’ll work on the reading paper,
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You go, kids! That’s totally, totally, totally awesome. Kudos to
Allan, Punzki and Topher, and to their coaches (Hi Doc Mana! Hi Doc V!
And I know Eric had a hand in that somewhere…), and to everyone else.
Goodness, I _miss_ Ateneo and the competitions…
The Ateneo Team “Linden BoyZ” bagged 6th place in the 2006 World Finals of
the ACM International Collegiate Programming Contest (ICPC) Java Challenge
held April 11 in San Antonio, Texas, USA.
The Ateneo contingent to the ACM ICPC consists of students Allan Espinosa,
Mark Punzalan, Christopher Rigor, and faculty members Dr. Pablo Manalastas
and Dr. John Paul Vergara as coaches, and Dr. Rafael Saldana as Regional
Contest Director for Asia-Manila.
The first place in the ICPC Java Challenge went to KTH – Royal Institute of
Technology (Sweden). The Ateneo team Linden BoyZ beat the other top
universities participating in the Java Challenge portion of the 2006 ACM
ICPC World Finals including Massachussets Institute of Technology (MIT),
California Institute of Technology (CIT), and Princeton University.
E-Mail from Dominique Cimafranca
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I play around with Ruby on Rails, and what do I do?
Build one webapp to keep track of what’s in my fridge, and another
webapp to keep track of what’s in my closet.
I’m going to do it in _pink_, too… ;)
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My deepest thanks go to all those who have written with such warm
words of encouragement and support. From people I have never met to
family and friends I miss, from all over the world – thank you, thank
you so very, very much. I don’t know what I could’ve done to deserve
such love, but I hope to spend the rest of my life repaying the world.
And to all who would have immediately written an encouraging note or
given me a hug had they read my blog, thank you as well.
In darkness, distant lights shine clearly.
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