January 5, 2007

Trudging along

January 5, 2007 - Categories: school

Somehow I thought I’d be happier working on this, but it’s
frustrating. Inching along, bit by bit, trying to figure out something
new.

I miss feeling brilliant. <wry grin> That’s part of it. It
frustrates me that I’m learning Rails bit by bit instead of
immediately being able to do what I want. I shouldn’t get frustrated
about things that are outside my control, like the speed of the
Internet (or lack thereof), but it’s hard not to get annoyed by my
lack of progress.

Still, the important thing is to keep moving forward, and I am.
Writing blog entries like this reassures everyone (and myself) that
I’m still alive, and will help me remember what this feeling is like
after it passes. It’s important to be able to keep working, and my
base work rate for estimation should be *this* instead of when I’m
in the zone.

Life varies. I’ll hit my stride again soon.

I’m giving a talk later. That’ll probably jazz me up.

Random Emacs symbol: eshell-pred-file-time – Function: Return a predicate to test whether a file matches a certain time.

Missing

January 5, 2007 - Categories: travel

I miss Canada, too. No, I don’t miss Canada; I miss the people I left
behind.

But I am here to be with the people I will miss all the rest of the
year. My weekends are theirs. During the week, though, I miss
everyone. We used to meet more often than this (even the cook has
asked where everyone has disappeared to!), but now I feel guilty
dragging them to my house for the leisurely conversations we used to
enjoy.

My friends here—we have gotten used to keeping in touch over the
Internet. I have to relearn how to be present again. Maybe I should
spend my evenings calling people up. I need that connection. This
feels wasteful, otherwise.

Random Emacs symbol: make-obsolete – Command: Make the byte-compiler warn that OBSOLETE-NAME is obsolete.