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Headlines for Tuesday:

  1. I heart my sister (3 words)
  2. Sometimes I just get homesick (366 words)
  3. Bayan Ko (135 words)
  4. More thoughts on what I want to do with my life (532 words)
  5. Long stories deserve long responses (49 words)

Tasks

    Priorities - A: high, B: medium, C: low; Status - _: unfinished, X: finished, C: cancelled, P: pending, o: in progress, >: delegated.
    CC@1600-1800 Industry showcase, U of T DCS - umm. where?
    AC@1800 Meet James at GH
    AX@2130 Hang out with James
    AXWrite long e-mail to my sister
    AXToastmasters agenda
    AXSend Toastmasters roles out to everyone
    BXReply about my sister : il nuovo dÃ)E-Mail from Kathy Chua
    BXCheck out malongs : E-Mail from clair ching
    BXSend resume : E-Mail from OBODARU Otilia
    ACToastmasters, exec meeting?

Notes

2. Sometimes I just get homesick: 16:25

I sometimes forget that I've only been here for a year and that it's perfectly normal for me to feel homesick from time to time. Sometimes it can be almost paralyzing.

We spent Labour Day weekend with Simon's parents. The conversation turned to the Philippines. I told them about the idea of a barkada - the close, mutually supportive group of friends that I often hung out with. I told them stories from my grandmother's colorful past. I told them about my parents, about the new house, about these little facets of life—and I found myself silently crying, wondering once again what I was doing in Canada, wondering whether I couldn't have just stayed home and made a difference anyway.

Simon stood up, walked over, and held me until I felt better. He promised that we'd talk afterwards. His dad looked at me with compassion and quietly asked me if I was feeling homesick. I nodded, and then joined Simon's mom in feeding peanuts to the raccoons that come to their deck - a little bit of serenity as I cleared my thoughts.

On the drive back, Simon helped me sort through not only what I was feeling but also how I might make the most of my talents and skills. I hurt because I care, Simon said, and that's a good thing. It's particularly difficult because my homesickness is also bound up in a sense of responsibility and a desire to help. Sometimes I get paralyzed by the thought that if I'm going to be away, I need to be doing something absolutely spectacular.

Yeah, sometimes that can be really scary.

I need to make sure that what I'm doing here is worth the sacrifice. Most of the time, I can see that. Most of the time, I remember that through luck or circumstance or work, I have more opportunities than most people would, and I can share those opportunities with other people. I have a good-karma file of the changes I've made to people's lives and the encouraging messages I've received. I sometimes need help remembering, though.

To all the people who remind me when I forget why I'm here: thank you.

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3. Bayan Ko: 18:23

The song "Bayan Ko" never fails to move me, and it is to this song and other traditional songs that I turn to whenever I feel homesick. I wish I knew the first stanza better, and I wish I could sing well enough to help even my non-Tagalog-speaking friends appreciate the beauty of the song.

Lyrics by Jose Corazon de Jesus, melody by Constancio de Guzman

Ang bayan kong Pilipinas
Lupain ng ginto't bulaklak
Pag-ibig ang sa kanyang palad
Nag-alay ng ganda't dilag.
At sa kanyang yumi at ganda
Dayuhan ay nahalina
Bayan ko, binihag ka
Nasadlak sa dusa.

Ibon mang may layang lumipad
Kulungin mo at umiiyak
Bayan pa kayang sakdal dilag
Ang di magnasang makaalpas!
Pilipinas kong minumutya
Pugad ng luha ko't dalita
Aking adhika,
Makita kang sakdal laya!

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4. More thoughts on what I want to do with my life: 19:12

The Labour Day weekend gave me an excellent opportunity to reflect on what I can do with my life, and I really appreciated being able to bounce ideas off Simon.

I have a lot of options ahead of me, and I want to think about this carefully. My first job doesn't have to be perfect, but it would be good to understand what my values and priorities are. I want to be extraordinary. I know, I'm 23 and my direction in life will change as I discover more about myself and about others. =) But it's good to think about it every now and then...

So here's where I stand, so far:

Technical: Social systems: Improving a social system such as LinkedIn or OpenBC would probably be the best fit for me in terms of technical work. I would enjoy listening to users and figuring out things that can make the tools easier to use or more powerful. I'm more interested in systems that help people connect in real life or in one-to-one relationships than in things like social bookmarking, where the social aspect is often secondary. I'm also more interested in facilitating introductions than I am in supporting groupware, although I can do that as well. I would love to help build systems that make it easier for people to keep in touch with lots and lots of people (attention-based aggregators, etc?), introduce people to others, move online connections into the real world and vice versa, and so on. Management: Outsourcing: The Philippines has a lot of talent, and there are plenty of opportunities to outsource. I want to learn how to help people set up outsourcing relationships, specify and manage projects, and manage and train people.

These are the two prospects I feel most passionate about, and I may be able to pursue them both. I don't want to be so heads-down in tech that I serve a narrow audience—only the users of my system—nor do I want to be so heads-down in management that I lose touch with my technical side. I think I can make this happen, though.

So, how can I go about doing that?

For social systems, there are all sorts of little things that I would like to build for myself or suggest to other people. I can learn good design through exposure and experience. I can write about features and systems I would like to see. I can even prototype them. I should spend some time learning how to make better user interfaces (a proper mouse may help!) and prototyping things on Rails or some other quick platform. Easy enough for me to get into.

For outsourcing, there might be a good opportunity to help set up a relationship between Direct Leap and either QSR or Exist. I know a few people who want to help me learn how to do this. I'm all for it!

My master's degree can help me with both. My research is related to the former, and my coursework is related to the latter.

Hmm. Sounds like a good plan. I've got other plans, just in case, but these are the two best plans at the moment.

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5. Long stories deserve long responses: 19:20

I deserved that public finger-wagging for my two-line reply to one of my sister's long stories. Which reminds me, I still have a stack of letters and cards to go through. In the future, I should never let myself get so busy that I flub my personal correspondence.

=)

E-mail sent

  1. E-mail to Simon Rowland
  2. E-mail to Harvey
  3. E-mail to Gabriel Mansour
  4. E-mail to Godfrey Lee
  5. E-mail to Brooke Gordon, Dana Ditomaso, Jane Zhang
  6. E-mail to Helen Overland
  7. E-mail to Don Marti
  8. E-mail to Pete Forde
  9. E-mail to Kathy Chua
  10. E-mail to Clara Fong
  11. E-mail to Jackie Achonu
  12. E-mail to Simon Rowland
  13. E-mail to Simon Rowland
  14. E-mail to Kathy Chua
  15. E-mail to Mark Chignell
  16. E-mail to Mama
  17. E-mail to Jane Zhang, Syed Dilawar
  18. E-mail to Ari Caylakyan
  19. E-mail to LISTSERV
  20. E-mail to Chelsea Taylor
  21. E-mail to Brian Wilson
  22. E-mail to Shiva Shahmohamed
  23. E-mail to Pete Forde
  24. E-mail to Ian C. Sison
  25. E-mail to Lorna Wong
  26. E-mail to Raj Shekhar
  27. E-mail to Kathy Chua
  28. E-mail to Simon Rowland
  29. E-mail to Mark Chignell
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