Things are working out

School is winding up nicely. I'm making progress on my research. My personal life has been much too interesting over the past few days, and that's why I've been feeling up and down. Thanks to everyone who called, texted, and e-mailed support... <hugz> You rock.

The past few weeks have been difficult, but we seem to have cleared the worst and have come to a new understanding. It amazes me that even though I kept trying to walk away and even though he was also under so much stress from business, he refused to give up, and he refused to let me give up.

Maybe this is a big part of what love is. It's not so much about having lots of high points—those will come with time—but being able to deal with the low points. And day by day, week by week, month by month, we're learning.

From "The Prophet" by Kahlil Gibran:

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

Besides, there are high points too. <grin> I just have to blog more of them so I'll remember.

This isn't an LJ post, so please e-mail me your insights or use the form on my page... =)

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Love 2.0

Photo by Rob Dudley. License: Creative Commons Attribution.
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Wow.

Just wow.

Whenever I falter and lose sight of my way, other people lift me up, set me on my feet, and point me back in the right direction.

Where would I be without my family and my friends and those random strangers and acquaintances who take a moment out of their busy days to reach out to me in all their generous humanity?

I am thankful for these moments of sadness and confusion, however brief they are, because they give me an opportunity to appreciate and deepen my respect for the wonderful, wonderful people in my life.

From friends who called and messaged and e-mailed as soon as they read my doubts, to my mom whose encouragement addressed my fears and strengthened my resolve, to coworkers who not only told me of interesting opportunities but also expressed their concern

I am loved beyond my ability to comprehend, and if I can spend the rest of my life sharing that experience of love with other people... wow!

It's been said that it takes a village to raise a child. I am being raised by the world.

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The Alchemist

Coelho, Paul. 1988. _The Alchemist._ p149.

"From where I am," the sun said, "I can see the Soul of the World. It communicates with my soul, and together we cause the plants to grow and the sheep to seek out shade. From where I am—and I'm a long way from the earth—I learned how to love. I know that if I came even a little bit closer to the earth, everything there would die, and the Soul of the World would no longer exist. So we contemplate each other, and we want each other, and I give it life and warmth, and it gives me my reason for living."

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Random Japanese sentence: うちは黒1匹、白2匹で、3匹の猫を飼っている。 We keep three cats, a black one and two white ones.

Sacha-sense tingling

This is what it's like to be loved. =)

I was having one of my I-hate-being-an-international-student moments when Dominique turned up online, telling me his Sacha-sense was tingling. I was incoherent during the first half of our Skype conversation, but he just kept listening to me and joking with me until I felt better.

I don't think I'll wake up in time to go to IBM tomorrow, so I'll make it up on Monday instead. I guess I'll work on the reading paper, then...

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Random Japanese sentence: 我々は犬や猫や鳥などを飼うことができる。 We can have dogs, cats, birds, and so on.

Paper penguin

My mom told me a totally warm-and-fuzzy story about paper penguins. Awwww! She loves me very, very, very much. =D

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